Sunday, November 21, 2010

really a what!!!

That day i'm busying doing my mathematics t exercise and try to from exercise improve my mathematics t.That time i'm doing the chapter matrices.And i'm keep on doing checking with my calculation with the calculator.
My mom saw me keep on pressing the calculator button then suddenly she comes out with "do you finish your games"
Really a what a stupid lame cold jokes that i could say.......
My mom has had improve stupid lame cold jokes skill,that i could say......

Monday, November 8, 2010

struggle . risk

I always take risk on doing most of my task and added with non-stopped struggle.I know that i'm not that good,and i always try hard to struggle to achieve what i hope to have and what i hope i will be.Struggling,taking risk is better than that i didn't take any action to achieve something to reaches something.Not caring about the lose but care about what had i did before the results coming out.Continuous taking risk and struggle will happen on me.

Friday, November 5, 2010

nowadays....

Nowadays,i'm getting busier,do not have enough time to blog!Nearly everyday visiting the library.Trying my best to to work harder on study although there is a phrase telling is to "play hard,work smart but not work hard".Sadly to say i'm not that clever as others but taking a quite risking challenge which is STPM as my study now just because haven't really decide yet what to study and my form five results is not that good.This is the very last chance for me to work it out to get scholarship for studies.Although i'm still love arts very much but as what parent say,art brings me nowhere so everything changes but not my mind which loving arts.I really feel like going for arts but maybe i have to go for my plan B which is after finishes science studies work for a period when have enough money to go further study then later on do studies on arts but still working and the study will make it at night.It's tough but need to work it out for what i have plan.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

i'm bless by lord

I had fail my IT brigade exams but yet to say i'm more happy with it because i have another 1 day to do my revision.I find that to be an IT brigadier is some how a waste of time.Their duties not much things to do,but stood in the computer rooms just like an idiot,and somehow to say is a waste of time.I was bless by lord that has had save me from hesitate to continue to be IT brigadier or not.Thanks lord,to let me another one day from a week to do my revison.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

real have fun with senior

Last sunday,my senior ask me out to book fest.Really have fun with them,i'm the youngest obviously and of course among the senior.They really nice to me,take me like as their sibblings.That day i'm slightly late.At first we say that me meet in the Dunkin Donuts shop.Then a senior who reaches earlier feel bored and went into Suria.When another senior who is much later than me i meet her in the light railway transit station only we when into Suria.We waited for that senior.Not a while that senior appear,then suggested to go to art gallery to have a look.While that we do wait for another senior who joining us and rush from church.After finish looking through the art in that gallery,then only we go for food.Four of us sharing a waffles and of course we do order food we wish to eat.Finish lunch we go to the conventional centre for the piano exhibition then only go for the book fest.After that we go for food again only we back home.While the time we back home the sky has already dark.

really another oh my god...

That day my mom scold just because of couldn't on the computer and play the computer games.Oh my godness....She thought that i have did something with the computer made her couldn't on the computer.A what!I didn't do anything to it,i just change a new plug only lah wei.Couldn't on the computer is non of my buisness.Make me feel so mad and sin because argue with her.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

have fun in christian fellowship

Just because i had sign up for the IT Brigade,actually i have an interview on thursday,but i had tell the senior of the IT Brigade that i'm not free on that day earlier because i have a class which is my piano class replacement that i couldn't miss it because the piano exam is coming near.Then he tell me is okay,he try to arrange another time for me to go for the interview.
Then,on friday,as usual i start to go for the morning section group prayer.While the section was going on,a sudden i feel nausea and feel not feeling well on my chest and i brisk walk to the drain so that i won't dirt the place.I walk silently although it was a brisk walk,but there is some of them turn their head to me.They look at me and wondering what happen to me.Erm...wait a minute,aren't while praying everyone have to close their eyes?How they know i'm away?Quite doubtful to know whether are they concentrate on praying or not.
Later then after the prayer section,another senior tell me that i have to attend my interview on that day at 1 pm.It's okay and fine for me because i have had face the interview for application of certain association,and i don't feel that nervous to face that.
Before this,on wednesday,my class monitor has ask me to go to the christian fellowship.And a sudden the IT Brigade senior tell me that i have an interview section on that day,so i just simply tell my monitor that i may be late to christian fellowship on that day.
After finish all the exams of the day,all exams end.Hurray,form six level exams quite tough and the very first exam ended because i'm not confident to do every single question.After take my bag,i wonder to look for my friend who also didn't attend the interview on thursday.But she had left early.Okay,fine.Before going for my interview,i saw my monitor,i just joking that asking him to take my bag to the christian fellowship room.But he take it seriously and drag my bag away from my back.I don't know what is he thinking.Is that he scare i'll not attend the christian fellowship or anything else?I've heard from some girls that he wasn't that gentleman to help others to take anything else.Is it that last time i help him to take his suit for awhile while he wants to get something from his pocket,then he repay me by doing the same thing?
Whatsoever,after he drag my bag away,i go to the IT Brigade room for the interview.I'm early for that.But there is some IT Brigade members there and give me the interview.Oh my goddess.The question they ask about for the PC component,i not even can answer well.I guess the probability is quite high for me to fail it.Hmm,whatever,let it past.
After the interview,i left that room and go for the christian fellowship.On the way walking down the stairs,i meet the senior who tell me the time and location for the interview and i just give him a smile,then he remind me about the interview but i reply him that i had done for that then i left.
When i reach the room they use to carry on the christian fellowship,they haven't started yet.Then when i saw my monitor,i thank him because my bag actually is pretty heavy to say just because of contain it with tuition stuff.At first he was confuse what i mean,haha.
They use to start the christian fellowship with praying the followed by singing to praise lord then only have some games.Before the game start they separate us into group but we don't have choice to prefer which group we are going in with the accompaniment of friend.My group have a senior quite active with it,he speak all the time and he name our group as "Wiwin".
At first my group quite active for the games,suddenly we are behind the other group and of course the marks also behind other.When come to the last question,they say they change the marks of 1 to be 5.We got it correctly and we win others.Then there is some others feel unfair because we just answer the number of question less then them but we score slightly higher then them.Then they ask for another question,but so sorry,the christian fellowship is going to dismiss,then we win it!Whenever we score marks for any question of that,all groups will shout out their groups name.And there is a group name themselves as silent,then when they win a marks,they sure have to shout out their group name but just because of the name,it makes others of us laugh all the while.So funny.
Before ending,we do pray and sing.After dismiss i ask my monitor to teach me the technique on how to strum the guitar,because i'm not confident on that.Then what he told me was just strum with feelings only.What!Feelings!Okay,it's fine.
But i still feel that i have fun in christian fellowship.

Friday, July 9, 2010

form six life

What i could say is form six life is really very tough to go through.By now i had feel the tens is following me.Before transfer to my dream school -- Methodist Boys Secondary School,i still feel slightly relax in my previous school which is Seri Serdang Secondary school for the tertiary study,and of course i mean form six.
I like to be in previous school before transfer just only because of friends.I have a lot of senior and friends which come from the same former school and also some of them i meet them in tuition centre.Whenever i find that the question or anything i don't understand i will go and look for my senior or even i'll be asking my classmate so that i'm clear with that.But mostly i'll look for my senior because i do think that they know and even mastered and understand and know how to explain to me.
However,i don't like to stay in my previous school reason is the chemistry and the mathematics t teacher,i couldn't understand any single thing of their teaching,the food in their canteen is unfavourable,the toilet there is too malay till i feel annoyed because every visit to toilet have to change the footwear,and the class of mine in that school was a container,when afternoon the class will become very warm that i hate it.
After transfer to my dream school,i feel that i'm much hardworking compare to last time.The school teacher mostly is quite responsible and always push us to become a top student.They very concern about do we really understand what they teaching,especially the chemistry teacher.My chemistry teacher give us quiz when he enter the class.He don't mind we couldn't answer the question i a fluent sentences as long as we tell out the main point.He wants us to up to date everyday.Another thing that i could describe the teacher in Methodist Boys Secondary School was serious.
This school let me find that quite interesting was their facilities.Every laboratory do have air-conditional,nearly all classes have speaker and some high tech products,toilets with a fan and no need to change footwear before enter,for form six students in a week at least have 1 period for computer class.They do have chapel every wednesday morning -- the first period.We have all subjects classes everyday.That school do have a tennis court,basketball court,volley ball court,badminton court and a field.
But too bad,science students for lower six having floating classes,they have a really very strict rules.
My parents tell me that since i success transfer school,not much laughing sound could heard from me.Of course,because must be more serious in study,no joking till i really feel very tense of that.Everyday back home after take lunch then have my nap then start to do homework,then take dinner.After that,continue do homework or do revision,pre-study till night,sometimes till wee hour,then have to wake up at 5.30 in the morning,then take light railway transit (LRT) to school at about 6.15 morning.All the way in the LRT,i'll be doing revision,so that i could improve more,i'm more outstanding compare to the others although i know it's impossible but i try hard to be that because just don't want to lose the compete in this competitive world,and also so that i could perform well in my studies.
When i tell this to my previous school senior,he feel like shocking,maybe because he's still in a moderate tempo study lifestyle,but me is slightly speed compare to him.

miss blogging life

I had busy for such a long time until no time to blog.Really miss blogging life.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

pizza i had

Yesterday,suddenly my mother says she wants something special,she wants to have some new on pizza and simply pointed on a pictures of the menu.I told her that contain beef and ask "do you really want."She hesitate for a while and said "okay,lets have that,once in a blue moon."
Beef was one of my favorite food,i like beef.That pizza taste nice and feel like next visit wants to have it again.

something that i feel unbelievable

Not much thing i can feel unbelievable from my parents.But this time,something has had come out from my mother mouth.Whenever my parents ask me what's my ambition,i had started not to tell because as last time all those answer i told them,they will disagree with a lot of their own reasons.Feel bored of that and i prefer to keep silent after few times they ask me.
That day,i went shopping with my mother and we were looking a good looking clothes to dress my mother of course,for the coming dinner.We good round and round the shopping centre boutique,we find that all those clothes design was quite lousy.And my mother says "nowadays all those clothes design becomes lousy,really very hard to get a nice clothes to put on for a dinner."
I agree to what she told.Then she follow with another sentences "i think you will be a good fashion designer,your taste quite good,if you are not a fashion designer really wasted your talent".A "what" jump out from my mind.That sentence my mother told really make me feel surprise because my mother always disagree one of my ambition to be a fashion designer but this time she talk like that,really a big surprise.I really can't believe that my mom will come out with this sentence. Then i reply her that "wow,if you really let me to go further study as a fashion designer,then i'll not going to go for form 6 study,this may save up my time a lot."
My mother said "ya,not only save up your time that spend on study,you can come out to work earlier and i can save up my budget."
The thing was i don't know was that real.Hesitate of.But i don't think so because last time she bumps out with a lot of reasons that how bad was that job.I really want to be a creative fashion designer in this world,that was one of my dream,but don't think my parents willing to spend money for me to go for the study of fashion designer although i will find that the job is quite an enjoyable job.This cannot be believe although my parents fully mastered what's my talent in.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

dislike that way

Today i go along with my mother to take blood test.Before reach hospital,i bought a milk from the petrol station.Later then we go out for the breakfast with my mother side eldest uncle.Quite nice to have tea like that.My mom let my uncle and aunt get down from the car and look for a place to seat.While looking for parking,me and my mom saw a lot of the authority giving out summon to those car owner who didn't pay for the parking fees.When we finally found the parking,there is a authority who is on duty waiting and see whether we pay for the car park or not.I feel so nervous while line up to wait till my turn to pay the bill.That machine was quite strange to me,i'm damn scared that people will scold me while waiting me to press the button and get the receipt.But surprisingly it was not what i thought so.So glad about that.
Later then,me and my mom walk across the road and look for my uncle.Overall the food was no longer as nice as old times.Just only the tea i like there.
Before going to that restaurant,actually my uncle wants to bring me to the other restaurant but too bad that restaurant was closed today.
After finishing the breakfast,we stay in my uncle house for a while then only we left and go to the income tax office to do some procedure.
I'm helping my mom to do the electronic filling for my mom and dad.
Suddenly my mom has had calculate that there is some mistake of the dividend and asked the authority there for help.My mom does not explain properly then the authority say key in like this then i had mention that i want to complete the filling of my dad first but they still want me to do correction on my mom's one.Then i force to close down my dad file and open my mom file then the authority find that the mistake he need to confirm from his head then my mom ask me to back to my dad files.
At that minutes i started to says that why not finished dad file first then only continue to do the correction of hers.I don't knows what do my mom thinking about.After listening that sentence i told,seems like in her ears i'm likely to speak aliens language and argument between me and her started.She slap me hardly in front of others.I really feel disappointed of her action.I'm telling i don't like they way of their procedure--jump here and there.
The filling document done.On the way back,she scold me hardly in car.She also scold that when you are working,your boss sometimes will ask you to do a lot of correction,maybe something or your working pieces you have to change the things again and again.
I does not mean the correction i had to do!I mean the steps!The procedure should not be like that!Am i talking alien languages!
I still thought today i will have a happy journey but ended with i cry.

what do my name means

The second word of my name brings the meaning of being admire by the others.This means others will either admire my talent or my kindness.But i find that it's not like that at all.Maybe it take some times only people find my good.Or that possible that people admire me till jealous me.I really wants to know the accurate answer.

i should be but i never

I always blog here and try to memorise myself to be a heartless person,to be cruel,to be self-centre,arrogant just like my cousin sister and wanted to be worst than her to let my own feel self-protect but i never can do so.I always being hurt no reasonably.To sad to feel hurt,tiring with those kind of feelings.No one knows better than i am and no one care about how do i really feel.Everyone always thought that i'm kind to let them hurt but i did not sound any.
That day on the celebration of the 15th of chinese new year,my cousin sister comment me badly in front of my parents.This i know newly.Just because i share something that the uncle and aunt of my cousins ex-neighbour on their guessing my real age,my cousin sister says that i'm arrogant just because of that.I really don't understand how do she really think.I seems like no rights to share out what others says before this.I seems like only a vase for her.I cannot have any movement,no rights to speak but kept quiet all the while.Seems like every steps i move to is a wrong step.
Mostly people likely to comment me bad but i do nothing to them.I not really understand how can i perform good in front of others so that comment will not be that bad.But no matter how well i perform,all those comment still that bad.Hurt badly.And my parents take those comment seriously,keep on lecturing me hardly.All those morals values i have had mastered well since i'm below lower secondary.I understand and i had try to do my best but my parents seems not trusting on me.Yet they still believe that i'm those kind of people.
Sometimes i really likely to blame the strict moral education of my parents.I think too deep like a man that so i won't goes wrong.Just because of those morals education,i'm different from the others children.I always try to keep good name of me and family.I'm always hesitate and becomes a person that is not as a care free child that every children should be.Scare to goes wrong.
I really admire others children that care free to do whatever they want and they like without cares about getting scold from the elder or older one's.
Just because of those comment,i wanted to be a bad children or a person of the world,so that it is fair to me.I trying my best to be a bad person of this wolrd but i never.

Monday, March 1, 2010

celebration of the last day of chinese new year

Yesterday i went to my aunts house to celebrate the last day of chinese new year.Quite interesting.When i step into my aunts house i heard bell's sound.Then i know my aunt's dog the naughty fatty bum bum dogie--Genie invite me and my parents friendly as usual.Every time me and my parent use to go to the kitchen and chat with the maid of my aunts.Yesterday we bring some fruits and also some tidbits there as a gift because my aunt invited us to be there for dinner.
I like pets a lot.I feel bored with the conversation between my parents and the maid.Then i left there and look for the naughty fatty bum bum.Although i'm not that like her compared to the other dog the golden retriever--Chance i play with her too because i have nothing to do at that time and Chance has had went out for his evening walk with my uncle.The only one Genie i can play with.At first no one play with her when i go near her she so exciting and she come near me too because she's bored too.Both we accompany each other.Whenever i ask her to do she'll listen to me like i ask her not to scratched her body and even shake hand.
Later then,Chance came back from his evening walk.When he saw me,he run to my front and hope me touch him.He's so nice.
Time for dinner,my aunt too invite the ex-neighbour and family to her house for dinner.
On the table,fish,vegetables and chicken and too the chinese desert was served.
My aunts ex-neighbours and family was quite sarcastic.Quite an amount of jokes comes out from them.Intersting.Later on everyone stop eating and their mouth too moving.They chat happily.Me too my mouth non-stop moving--eating.My cousins sister laugh at me because i'm still eating.Then she continue saying her ex-neighbours thought i'm around 14 year old with my looks.What?It's true.Then i answer her it's a better answer compared to the others,the other guess i'm still in primary school.Then they continue laugh.
A while later,that uncle gave massage to both the dogies.So nice.Then my aunt ask the wife of that uncle that do uncle massage for her.Then the whole family of the ex-neighbours started to giggling.Then only that aunt answer "he did not ask me to massage for him already very good".This answer everyone there understand what does it mean.
When the ex-neighbour wants to back to their home that uncle says goodbye to everyone.Then follow by "where's Genie?"
Genie is at the back to begged for food from the maid.Haha.
My cousins sister asked me and my mom for a walk.Both me and my cousins bring the dogies out.My aunt follow along too.We put on the leash on the dogs neck then only we walk.As usual,sometimes i let Genie sit on my lap and swing.But this time i couldn't do so because Genie getting heavier.Finished playing with swing,both me and my cousin sister try to let Chance go for a slide,but Chance does not want to.Then we guess,Genie is the one tell Chance something.Haha.
Not a while after back to my aunt house,my aunt ask me up to help her to do something on her flickr.
It's late,me and my parents has to back home,when arrived home had already 12 something in the midnight.