a scary nap dream

In the dream...
I was in my own class {chemistry laboratory} and chatting with my closed friend happily.
In a sudden my aunt which she lives opposite my house neighbours rushed into my class and called me out of the class in a hurry.She telled me that my mom had been died without telling the cause of death and hurried me back home.
When i back home,i saw everyone are preparing and setting up the ceromony.At first i really don't believe to it until i saw my mother lying in the coffin.At that moment i feel lost, a sudden blank and also helpless, because she was the only one parent who take care of me, teach me and give advise me on choosing the way to make my life perfect and there is no one can replace her because my father had past away seens i was in primary 4.My tears flow out just like a fountain, non stop flowing after knowing her death.
After some times, i stop crying and asked a guy i think he is my closed friend which i don't know how he know my mother [think back quite an impossible thing].I asked him what causes my mother to death.He reply me that, my mother died because and accident.That accident is a cart which send a lot of new cars to the show room fell and press to my mother cars{kancil,perodua}and also more than 40 cars on the federal highway.
After knowing it, i continue crying all the time although the ceromony starts.The priest direct the other relatives to sing and also invocation.After that i was pleased to talk something.My feelings really uncontrollable and i force my self to give out everything relevent to her, every sweet moment with her in a speech form [with crying].She is the best mom that i receive from god.In my heart i saying that why god you bring my mom away,at least let her live in this world until i know how to drive.
A sudden again, the dream was break because i wander to go for a pee.At that time i realize that that was just a scarry dream and i have tears on my face and i do scream in whisper form.When i saw my mom is having her nap on the other sofa then only i calm down.This is the worst experience of dream that i ever experience it.I t really feel bad.I dislike it because it was to real.

a sudden memories come to me

I sudden remember something happen in my school during the recess time of my school.After finish my biology paper 1 exams i back to my class and have my last minute study for my reka cipta subjects.At that moment, some of my classmate feel boring on study and they stop it.There was 2 pair of love birds having their date in my class, which 2 girls from other class come to my class.One of them is form 3 and the other one is form 4 which is my cousin sister.That time there was 2 guy act out every moments that done by one pair of the love birds(the form 3 girl and my classmate).At first,my monitor which is a guy he act as the girl and the other classmate which always make himself like a singger in class he act as the boy.This makes alot of laughing sound from few numbers of classmate and of course me.After a while the monitor give the character of the love birds girl to another girl.Their acting really perfect just like the real couple.That love birds realize their action, and the guy of that love birds feel started some anger feelings and tell far away with whisper to the actor stop acting whatever they done, because he is quite angry.After that we do not have movies. Everyting disappear as usual because recess time has past.
Back to Tuesday memory...
On Tuesday the chinese exams paper essay question which we can choose the essay title like objective question.At first i pick the question"students which like study ,he or she won't goes bad".That question i wonder to reflect i disagree that statement.But half way i realize that i can't reach 400 word and above , then i answer the other one which is "how is your dream school looks like".I reflect that i do have some problems on my leg which i have chronic pain on my leg and i have a floating class which means my class is science laboratory.If any classes need to use my class for their lessons oour class have to go to their class to continue the lessons of the day and this problems make me feel bored to go to school for my studies.Then i continue write to the main story that i have to write is i dream the school is computerize, which means in every class and every students table have a computer.And students are using computer for studies.This may reduce the weight of the bagsand student does not need to anxiety on the heavy bags.Next is have lift system, so that teacher and student can be in class on time , no additional class happen.The other point i write there every classes should have air conditional. So that the class condition always cool.Lastly i write there but these is just a dream .These won't appear in school except the private school.For the government school just a dream which won't happen because government want to save money for other uses.I hope this essay will help me from fail my chinese results but not due me to fail.

decision

This morning i am quite worry on doing some decision, because i am still not that confident on doing that decision.Once got wrong maybe will get scold from the teacher.Decision that i have to think about before i do:
1.If my biology teacher which help me on the projects didn't come should i attend the biology
paper 1 in other classes, and which class should i in???
After meet the teacher ,she tell me that i have to follow the first class.Then i found that there is no any extra table for me to sit for the exams
2.See wheather the third, forth, and fifth classes have any extra chairs and table then should i
conduct there then???But there is just enough for that classes of students.
I go to see that biology teacher in her office but she was not in.After then i got trapped by the discipline teacher.He ask strictly :"are you from adviser associated?"Follow on i say yes to him.Then he ask again :" why is your uniform are not tidy?Are you sick?"Then i answer him yes because i feel very sick in every test.But when i am in primary school is worst.That time i always fall in sick in every exams.But to day is not that sick as yesteday.After that i rush back to class.
At last i made my own decision that i conduct my biology paper 1 in my own class,on the way back to the first class.Which i have to rush to the first class to take the exams paper then rush back to my class and ask my class teacher whoever he or she in as my patol teacher during the exams.After telling what goes on to that teacher, that teacher asked me :"why don't you bring your table and chairs here and take your exams?"
Finally, i also follow the instruction.I go in to my class after inform to my teacher i bring along my tables and chair to the examination class.That time i am quite lazy to carry that on my own but to ask the guys sitting behind my class which are chatting happily in the class although i have the energy to carry it.But i didn't break their happiness.I carry my chair's and my desk there.
I think i do quite well today with the last minutes study that i did on last night till today wee hours.
Before times up the exam patrol teacher was my school assistant headmaster.He ask who is the students from the second class.Then i raise up my hand to show him it's me.He asked me to go infront of the class and tell him my name. After then i back to my sit and continue check my answer.At th same time he also asked who wants to have some study to prepared the biology paper 2 please hand in your papers then you can get your books and study quitely.But i didn't hand in early although i have finish answering the question.
Lastly, i hand in when he said times up.This time i am quite satisfy to my paper 1 exams.May be i study it also during my past time.But i still have to prepared for my biology paper 2 which i have to conduct it later.{but don't know when}

dairy.

Today is my malay and chinese test.This morning i start to feel extremely nervous until nausea.When i get the question paper i feel a sudden blank,and i try my best to finish it.To finish 5 hours long exams is not easy.When finish the paper my finger feel very pain.No during the exams already pain.
Last blog i have written that i do no reaction to my piano resutls.Today i got the remark of my piano exams and i tell my parents what i got.No sign from them.

concern on health???
after study in science stream i know that how sugar can harm our body more deeply.because of that i become more concern to my daily nutritious.one day i have my breakfast with my parent in one coffee shop that nearby my house.then i wonder to ask do either the kayang pau ,lian rong pau ,dao sa pau and even char siew pau suger free or less suger since nowadays people are concern on their suger level. i wander to know what will the bos react to me but my parent avoid me to do so.

i want freedom

Every teenager sure like to have their own freedom without any control from parents, teachers, friends and civic.Me too.My parents always control me strictly until i have lost my self from choosing my own way.I want to live own my way,i want to do everythings that i like without anyone contol me,no matter i won or lose.I wanted to challenge my life till the end of the day i live in this world.But most elder told all youngster just follow whatever what your parents asked to do,just like you follow the laws in school and also your countries laws which can help to make this world hermony.Bord to listen to this sentence again and again seems like all over the world until i can bear this into my mind and when others are repeat to the others i can continue the next word.(hai...)
I know this is for my own good but not until cannot go out with friends during the holidays and have to follow them wherever they go like a pets.(sigh...)