Sunday, March 7, 2010

pizza i had

Yesterday,suddenly my mother says she wants something special,she wants to have some new on pizza and simply pointed on a pictures of the menu.I told her that contain beef and ask "do you really want."She hesitate for a while and said "okay,lets have that,once in a blue moon."
Beef was one of my favorite food,i like beef.That pizza taste nice and feel like next visit wants to have it again.

something that i feel unbelievable

Not much thing i can feel unbelievable from my parents.But this time,something has had come out from my mother mouth.Whenever my parents ask me what's my ambition,i had started not to tell because as last time all those answer i told them,they will disagree with a lot of their own reasons.Feel bored of that and i prefer to keep silent after few times they ask me.
That day,i went shopping with my mother and we were looking a good looking clothes to dress my mother of course,for the coming dinner.We good round and round the shopping centre boutique,we find that all those clothes design was quite lousy.And my mother says "nowadays all those clothes design becomes lousy,really very hard to get a nice clothes to put on for a dinner."
I agree to what she told.Then she follow with another sentences "i think you will be a good fashion designer,your taste quite good,if you are not a fashion designer really wasted your talent".A "what" jump out from my mind.That sentence my mother told really make me feel surprise because my mother always disagree one of my ambition to be a fashion designer but this time she talk like that,really a big surprise.I really can't believe that my mom will come out with this sentence. Then i reply her that "wow,if you really let me to go further study as a fashion designer,then i'll not going to go for form 6 study,this may save up my time a lot."
My mother said "ya,not only save up your time that spend on study,you can come out to work earlier and i can save up my budget."
The thing was i don't know was that real.Hesitate of.But i don't think so because last time she bumps out with a lot of reasons that how bad was that job.I really want to be a creative fashion designer in this world,that was one of my dream,but don't think my parents willing to spend money for me to go for the study of fashion designer although i will find that the job is quite an enjoyable job.This cannot be believe although my parents fully mastered what's my talent in.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

dislike that way

Today i go along with my mother to take blood test.Before reach hospital,i bought a milk from the petrol station.Later then we go out for the breakfast with my mother side eldest uncle.Quite nice to have tea like that.My mom let my uncle and aunt get down from the car and look for a place to seat.While looking for parking,me and my mom saw a lot of the authority giving out summon to those car owner who didn't pay for the parking fees.When we finally found the parking,there is a authority who is on duty waiting and see whether we pay for the car park or not.I feel so nervous while line up to wait till my turn to pay the bill.That machine was quite strange to me,i'm damn scared that people will scold me while waiting me to press the button and get the receipt.But surprisingly it was not what i thought so.So glad about that.
Later then,me and my mom walk across the road and look for my uncle.Overall the food was no longer as nice as old times.Just only the tea i like there.
Before going to that restaurant,actually my uncle wants to bring me to the other restaurant but too bad that restaurant was closed today.
After finishing the breakfast,we stay in my uncle house for a while then only we left and go to the income tax office to do some procedure.
I'm helping my mom to do the electronic filling for my mom and dad.
Suddenly my mom has had calculate that there is some mistake of the dividend and asked the authority there for help.My mom does not explain properly then the authority say key in like this then i had mention that i want to complete the filling of my dad first but they still want me to do correction on my mom's one.Then i force to close down my dad file and open my mom file then the authority find that the mistake he need to confirm from his head then my mom ask me to back to my dad files.
At that minutes i started to says that why not finished dad file first then only continue to do the correction of hers.I don't knows what do my mom thinking about.After listening that sentence i told,seems like in her ears i'm likely to speak aliens language and argument between me and her started.She slap me hardly in front of others.I really feel disappointed of her action.I'm telling i don't like they way of their procedure--jump here and there.
The filling document done.On the way back,she scold me hardly in car.She also scold that when you are working,your boss sometimes will ask you to do a lot of correction,maybe something or your working pieces you have to change the things again and again.
I does not mean the correction i had to do!I mean the steps!The procedure should not be like that!Am i talking alien languages!
I still thought today i will have a happy journey but ended with i cry.

what do my name means

The second word of my name brings the meaning of being admire by the others.This means others will either admire my talent or my kindness.But i find that it's not like that at all.Maybe it take some times only people find my good.Or that possible that people admire me till jealous me.I really wants to know the accurate answer.

i should be but i never

I always blog here and try to memorise myself to be a heartless person,to be cruel,to be self-centre,arrogant just like my cousin sister and wanted to be worst than her to let my own feel self-protect but i never can do so.I always being hurt no reasonably.To sad to feel hurt,tiring with those kind of feelings.No one knows better than i am and no one care about how do i really feel.Everyone always thought that i'm kind to let them hurt but i did not sound any.
That day on the celebration of the 15th of chinese new year,my cousin sister comment me badly in front of my parents.This i know newly.Just because i share something that the uncle and aunt of my cousins ex-neighbour on their guessing my real age,my cousin sister says that i'm arrogant just because of that.I really don't understand how do she really think.I seems like no rights to share out what others says before this.I seems like only a vase for her.I cannot have any movement,no rights to speak but kept quiet all the while.Seems like every steps i move to is a wrong step.
Mostly people likely to comment me bad but i do nothing to them.I not really understand how can i perform good in front of others so that comment will not be that bad.But no matter how well i perform,all those comment still that bad.Hurt badly.And my parents take those comment seriously,keep on lecturing me hardly.All those morals values i have had mastered well since i'm below lower secondary.I understand and i had try to do my best but my parents seems not trusting on me.Yet they still believe that i'm those kind of people.
Sometimes i really likely to blame the strict moral education of my parents.I think too deep like a man that so i won't goes wrong.Just because of those morals education,i'm different from the others children.I always try to keep good name of me and family.I'm always hesitate and becomes a person that is not as a care free child that every children should be.Scare to goes wrong.
I really admire others children that care free to do whatever they want and they like without cares about getting scold from the elder or older one's.
Just because of those comment,i wanted to be a bad children or a person of the world,so that it is fair to me.I trying my best to be a bad person of this wolrd but i never.

Monday, March 1, 2010

celebration of the last day of chinese new year

Yesterday i went to my aunts house to celebrate the last day of chinese new year.Quite interesting.When i step into my aunts house i heard bell's sound.Then i know my aunt's dog the naughty fatty bum bum dogie--Genie invite me and my parents friendly as usual.Every time me and my parent use to go to the kitchen and chat with the maid of my aunts.Yesterday we bring some fruits and also some tidbits there as a gift because my aunt invited us to be there for dinner.
I like pets a lot.I feel bored with the conversation between my parents and the maid.Then i left there and look for the naughty fatty bum bum.Although i'm not that like her compared to the other dog the golden retriever--Chance i play with her too because i have nothing to do at that time and Chance has had went out for his evening walk with my uncle.The only one Genie i can play with.At first no one play with her when i go near her she so exciting and she come near me too because she's bored too.Both we accompany each other.Whenever i ask her to do she'll listen to me like i ask her not to scratched her body and even shake hand.
Later then,Chance came back from his evening walk.When he saw me,he run to my front and hope me touch him.He's so nice.
Time for dinner,my aunt too invite the ex-neighbour and family to her house for dinner.
On the table,fish,vegetables and chicken and too the chinese desert was served.
My aunts ex-neighbours and family was quite sarcastic.Quite an amount of jokes comes out from them.Intersting.Later on everyone stop eating and their mouth too moving.They chat happily.Me too my mouth non-stop moving--eating.My cousins sister laugh at me because i'm still eating.Then she continue saying her ex-neighbours thought i'm around 14 year old with my looks.What?It's true.Then i answer her it's a better answer compared to the others,the other guess i'm still in primary school.Then they continue laugh.
A while later,that uncle gave massage to both the dogies.So nice.Then my aunt ask the wife of that uncle that do uncle massage for her.Then the whole family of the ex-neighbours started to giggling.Then only that aunt answer "he did not ask me to massage for him already very good".This answer everyone there understand what does it mean.
When the ex-neighbour wants to back to their home that uncle says goodbye to everyone.Then follow by "where's Genie?"
Genie is at the back to begged for food from the maid.Haha.
My cousins sister asked me and my mom for a walk.Both me and my cousins bring the dogies out.My aunt follow along too.We put on the leash on the dogs neck then only we walk.As usual,sometimes i let Genie sit on my lap and swing.But this time i couldn't do so because Genie getting heavier.Finished playing with swing,both me and my cousin sister try to let Chance go for a slide,but Chance does not want to.Then we guess,Genie is the one tell Chance something.Haha.
Not a while after back to my aunt house,my aunt ask me up to help her to do something on her flickr.
It's late,me and my parents has to back home,when arrived home had already 12 something in the midnight.

lessly active in blogger

Is not i don't like to blog but i'm slightly lazy.I can blog a lot but nowadays my mother does not allowed me to be online for a long hour.Just because of those reason i'm less active on blogging.Fisrt of all i like blogging a lot because i can learn to write fluently that can improve my languages and even the speed for me to think and to write in the exams.Not only that,i do can improve my essays writing.I like blogger a lot which let me have a chance to write out my feelings.