Few weeks ago, the news comes out that they will change the science and mathematics subjects from english back to the students mother tongue.I was dam angry to heard that.If a children learn with their mother tongue when come to english it will becomes very hard for them and also somethings that is hard for them to catch up.I could said that because i experience it.
I think the best solution is teach the children with english and comes along their mother tongue.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
hope
This times i scan and send the all lesson notes that my friend absent to them.I hope i can receive thank you this 2 words from them.
i'm so scare that i could not finish my study before the exams
Suddenly,i feel so scare that i couldn't finish all the studies before my exams.I feel more nervous when the day goes nearer to year 2009.I take a lot of subjects for my exams because i am the only child for my parents.I aim that i can mastered all so that in future i have more choices or i can seek for more different jobs from what i study for.Or maybe like this i can feel comfort from the compatative in this world.
so sad
This morning my aunt call and ask my mom why do i send twice the card.Haiyoh...,i send the first one is for christmas eve and the second is for christmas lah.So sad my aunt don't understand what do i mean,and i hope all others friend can understand my objective.
Friday, December 26, 2008
my friend friendship
I really really hope my friend friendship would be better than before.But my friend just reacted like whatever how it goes.Make me feel like a bit disappointed.
merry christmas
That's not a really merry christmas in this year for me.I feel so bord although i send a lot of christmas mail and also the christmas eve mail out.Maybe my cousins not here.I cannot play with him.
Hope next year christmas will be better and hopefully this coming new year won't be that boring.
Hope next year christmas will be better and hopefully this coming new year won't be that boring.
tasteless crab
Last wednesday i am so happy because i will have a gathering with my mother side auntie and uncle in a seafood restaurant.At first i receive an unknown message.After checking the phone number only i know that's my uncle message which written dam short which he though nowadays youngster style "CRABS OPEN".
For reconfirmation i go down from my Petaling Jaya branch of Kasturi tuition centre to that seafood restaurant and i go into it and ask the staff.
Then i reply 2 messages which is "got" and the other message is "you want me to wait you there or what." Wait for some time they reply and asked me to wait at the 7 eleven operate for 24 hours shop.
Later ,after my biology tuition class, i walk there with my friend which also come from the Kuala Lumpur branch of Kasturi tuition center which makes that biology tuition teacher feel surprise to 7 eleven operate for 24 hours shop, then she go to the Putra light railway transit.
Luckily i ask teacher for certain question ,if not i think i will be waiting for my parent for quite a long time.
After my parent comes,they fetch me nearby the seafood restaurant to park the car.And i become the leader to bring them to the restaurant.First time go in, the waiter and waitress give some kind of friendly feel.They serve us some peanuts and ajak {a type of chinese food which taste sour and spicy}.Tasteless that i could describe the ajak.
My aunt order for crabs, crockeal,and other dishes.
When it serve in front of us the second things for the critics is also tasteless.In a sudden i feel so lousy.
It cause dam expensive.Urgh wander to scold but i dare not because theres a lot of artist been there before.
For reconfirmation i go down from my Petaling Jaya branch of Kasturi tuition centre to that seafood restaurant and i go into it and ask the staff.
Then i reply 2 messages which is "got" and the other message is "you want me to wait you there or what." Wait for some time they reply and asked me to wait at the 7 eleven operate for 24 hours shop.
Later ,after my biology tuition class, i walk there with my friend which also come from the Kuala Lumpur branch of Kasturi tuition center which makes that biology tuition teacher feel surprise to 7 eleven operate for 24 hours shop, then she go to the Putra light railway transit.
Luckily i ask teacher for certain question ,if not i think i will be waiting for my parent for quite a long time.
After my parent comes,they fetch me nearby the seafood restaurant to park the car.And i become the leader to bring them to the restaurant.First time go in, the waiter and waitress give some kind of friendly feel.They serve us some peanuts and ajak {a type of chinese food which taste sour and spicy}.Tasteless that i could describe the ajak.
My aunt order for crabs, crockeal,and other dishes.
When it serve in front of us the second things for the critics is also tasteless.In a sudden i feel so lousy.
It cause dam expensive.Urgh wander to scold but i dare not because theres a lot of artist been there before.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
happy then sad
I was so happy that i have a chance go take Light Railway Transit with my mom to do some procedure which is needed.After that,i go to bookstore with my mom also.I saw a book which all about art craft.I tell my mom to brought it but my mom ignore it with excuse that she is not that free.I do an arguement with " you are so free" because last time she tell me she is lonsome.
After,buying my books we go back home then.On the way back home she come a sudden and scold me "you think i am that free ah!!!I will be free except you go to school by bus,and also you go tuition without taking my car through and flow."
When back to home,she only willing to listen to me.Then she scold back why you didn't brought it for me.In my heart i could tell that you are that fierce how dare i buy.If i buy i got scold from you leh.
Then only everything come to the end.
After,buying my books we go back home then.On the way back home she come a sudden and scold me "you think i am that free ah!!!I will be free except you go to school by bus,and also you go tuition without taking my car through and flow."
When back to home,she only willing to listen to me.Then she scold back why you didn't brought it for me.In my heart i could tell that you are that fierce how dare i buy.If i buy i got scold from you leh.
Then only everything come to the end.
jealouse
Last saturday is the last day of tuition for this holiday.The way i come back home from Petaling Jaya branch of kasturi in STAR Light Railway Transit,i saw 1 family which was very happy with the present the brought back i think is from SOGO shopping centre and a large size cake's which i guess is about 2 kilogram and cheese flavour from the family members conversation.I think there were a woman is the sister for the mother and a family which include definately the father,mother,and two little small fellow.That time i was so jealous, because they were so complete that i would say.
Monday, December 1, 2008
visit to my aunt house
Yesterday,i go to my aunt house.When my mom and me is going in the house there were a dog following us.When my aunt dog's Brend start to bark to the other dog's and the dog come in and attack Brend.My aunt and uncle try to stop the "dogs war".My uncle use the stool and hit the dogs but its not working.After the war stop, me and my mom only know that the dog haven't fight before.{huh???hahaha}The dog didn't know "DIE" how to spell.
After some time,my aunt went out and by some fried food from malay stalls in the night market.Tasty,smell nice,and also crunchy.
Later on,She said she want to bring me to a park which nearby her house and also vads compony building.There is just okey.My aunt said be careful when taking photo because behind the park there was an indian village and also heard a lot news about rob.
When we back to my aunt house,i feel sleepy and fell asleep at her sofa.
After they take their bath, except me,we go for dinner in restoran "Golden Kimwah".The "sing gua taufu" quite nice but the "sing gua" very old ,the fibre like a brush."Kam heong lala" taste good and the "friend pork hand" also good but a lot of fats.When i eat the "friend pork hand" i seperate the skin and the meat so that i won't eat the fats.
Back home aftetr the dinner.My cousins sister bring me out to night market and she want to search for the sweet corn,but unfortunately it was late already mostly stalls starts to clean their place.
Later than, we back home and eat the bentong ice-cream that my aunt bought that day.It was not that smooth as that day we eat in bentong.
After some time,my aunt went out and by some fried food from malay stalls in the night market.Tasty,smell nice,and also crunchy.
Later on,She said she want to bring me to a park which nearby her house and also vads compony building.There is just okey.My aunt said be careful when taking photo because behind the park there was an indian village and also heard a lot news about rob.
When we back to my aunt house,i feel sleepy and fell asleep at her sofa.
After they take their bath, except me,we go for dinner in restoran "Golden Kimwah".The "sing gua taufu" quite nice but the "sing gua" very old ,the fibre like a brush."Kam heong lala" taste good and the "friend pork hand" also good but a lot of fats.When i eat the "friend pork hand" i seperate the skin and the meat so that i won't eat the fats.
Back home aftetr the dinner.My cousins sister bring me out to night market and she want to search for the sweet corn,but unfortunately it was late already mostly stalls starts to clean their place.
Later than, we back home and eat the bentong ice-cream that my aunt bought that day.It was not that smooth as that day we eat in bentong.
biology teacher from tuition centre
Haha, i'm so glad about thursday my biology tuition teacher which i admire the most fetch me to tuition centre. At first he keep on asking me will we late there than ah.Because its not early already.Which way should we go hah?I tell him use kesas highway will be faster than using the federal highway.On the way, i keep on asking the question that i am not so sure to answer,so that i can do it excel in my future exams.Finish asking we chat about the teacher the attitude of the student in different branch tuition centre student.Not only that he also talk about my senior.hahaha.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
not enjoy in cousins wedding ceremony
When on the way,a sudden heavy rain pour .I'm not enjoy because the food not nice and the wain too.The fish got smell ,the prawn i think 1 of that is marmit it was too sweet and the mayonise one just okey.About all the food is salty.The wain grade i think i not a good standard one because can't smell the wine ,taste not pure at all.
My mom asked me do i want some i said okey,and she tell me finish it.When i finish that glass of wain my mom said i'm just joking why you finished it.Ireply that i always serious to everything although i like to tell jokes.The second time my mom asked me still want some i said okey,and she remind me not to finish it.
After that, my face becomes very red.I don't believe it then i excuse my self .When i saw myself on the mirror, it really scare me.
Then some of my relatives asked me you drink wine ah.I node my head.One of my aunt ask me do you feel fainting ,i reply a little but i'm still okey.
My mom asked me do i want some i said okey,and she tell me finish it.When i finish that glass of wain my mom said i'm just joking why you finished it.Ireply that i always serious to everything although i like to tell jokes.The second time my mom asked me still want some i said okey,and she remind me not to finish it.
After that, my face becomes very red.I don't believe it then i excuse my self .When i saw myself on the mirror, it really scare me.
Then some of my relatives asked me you drink wine ah.I node my head.One of my aunt ask me do you feel fainting ,i reply a little but i'm still okey.
develop
Develop,develop,develop,
make everywhere dusty and heaty.
Why mens still not satisfied life?
Develop,develop,develop,
creatures lost their habitats.
Should mens stop dumping
chemicals or waste products to the river?
Develop,develop,develop,
please stop it,please.
let the next generation have a chances
to know more creatures in this world.
make everywhere dusty and heaty.
Why mens still not satisfied life?
Develop,develop,develop,
creatures lost their habitats.
Should mens stop dumping
chemicals or waste products to the river?
Develop,develop,develop,
please stop it,please.
let the next generation have a chances
to know more creatures in this world.
back to tuition
Quit excited back to tuition.This make me remember the first time i go to Kasturi Tuition Centre and that day i got fever.After back from there my fever say goodbye to me because Kasturi Tuition Centre is extremely cold till i recover.HAHA.So good.
day to trip goes so fast
I have back to home for such a long time ago.
Trip to Fraser's Hill is just nice to nature lover.The air is quit fresh,i think the size of the flower is 2 or 3 times bigger than Kuala Lumpur and also my hometown.
Before that my parent plan go on tuesday back on wednesday but they delay the date to back home.[go home on thursday]I feel relax, maybe because em...exams finish already.I take this opportunity to relax myself and ready to put all my effort on my studies after this trip and i do so.That few days in Fraser's Hill ,i go jungle tracking with my parent there.Although i got some problems on my leg , but the pain leave me for that few day.I think nowadays my legs problems is not that serious already,maybe holidays,no more floating classes ,my lae have enough rest.
Unfortunately,the gastric miss me so much.It comes to me during the trip and make me feel uncomfortable.{sad,tears is going to come out}
The second night in Fraser's Hill my parent also plan go to my fourth uncle's house which is located in Raub. After to Raub,we also back home.On the way back home,we passes through Bentong.We are that lucky an taste the ice-cream there which most people said it was smooth.It was tasty and when i buy ice-cream from the shopping centre, i feel that i really miss the ice-cream in Bentong.{hai.sign}
Trip to Fraser's Hill is just nice to nature lover.The air is quit fresh,i think the size of the flower is 2 or 3 times bigger than Kuala Lumpur and also my hometown.
Before that my parent plan go on tuesday back on wednesday but they delay the date to back home.[go home on thursday]I feel relax, maybe because em...exams finish already.I take this opportunity to relax myself and ready to put all my effort on my studies after this trip and i do so.That few days in Fraser's Hill ,i go jungle tracking with my parent there.Although i got some problems on my leg , but the pain leave me for that few day.I think nowadays my legs problems is not that serious already,maybe holidays,no more floating classes ,my lae have enough rest.
Unfortunately,the gastric miss me so much.It comes to me during the trip and make me feel uncomfortable.{sad,tears is going to come out}
The second night in Fraser's Hill my parent also plan go to my fourth uncle's house which is located in Raub. After to Raub,we also back home.On the way back home,we passes through Bentong.We are that lucky an taste the ice-cream there which most people said it was smooth.It was tasty and when i buy ice-cream from the shopping centre, i feel that i really miss the ice-cream in Bentong.{hai.sign}
Monday, November 10, 2008
continue exams
Last week:
Sunday : Before evening i was full of confident on passing my history with flying colours.My confident stop when night.Suddenly feel very scare till nausea.Whatever what i had study everthing gone,disappear.But a suprise which come out from my mom is "do your best is enough already, you do not need to put on the pressure, isn't that you already prepared it since after your mid-year exams?"I so happy to heard that from my mom because this is the first time she give me this advise.Normally my mom will said "you must do the best and score the best marks,if not then you better watch up."
Monday : The history exams is soon will be conduct, still feel very nervous.After school time my mother ask me how about your exams,good?I answer i just do it my best only,because i feel everthing lost from my memory.Somemore the questions ask a lot about Islamic,i haven finish memorize that part yet.
Tuesday : Chemistry i did it just ok only.Some information i have forgotten.But still can pass the exams.
Wednesday : Oh my god for my physics exams.Paper 1 do not have enough time to finish all the objectives question.A lot of calculation.Paper 2 quite headache.At nigh i didn't sleep well.I only sleep about an hour then prepared my additional mathematics exams next morning.
Thursday : Moral paper i memorize some of the moral values only from that morning at the last minutes of time.Hahaha.This time i do think that i could past my additional mathematics,section a ,a lot not sure of the formula,then i try to score my marks in section b and c.But i didn't feel tired during exams.At night didn't sleep weel again.This time i sleep for around 45 minutes only.
Then i prepared for my mathematics paper.
Friday : Mathematics paper 1 also same like physics paper 1 as well, do not have enough of time to finish it.Afterthat, i go and see my biology teacher which give me biology paper 2 exams personally to confirm the time.During my mathematics paper 2 that teacher go into mt class and tell me that postpone to next monday.Hate this type of people lah,disturb me when i having exams and also make me free take much more longer than other.Hai {sign}. That day also have a society meeting which is the last time for the year,but i go there late.About going to dismiss i only go because everything is about the same.Their speech always about the same.So, boring.Only the activities would be different only.Because of that, i escape to be there to the christian felloship.This place makes me feel more comfortable to be there,somemore study bible knoledge is more fun,gain knowledge and also got story to listen .Maybe my looks is not that serious during the study,teacher almost every time she will ask me to read out the passage then only she explain.But actually i am always serious in study.I always remember what story she taught and also what the story brings about.When the classes finished only i go to the society.In ten minutes time it dismiss.Huray.After that,i go to the telephone station there to call my mom to fetch me back home.But i call a lot of times but no one answer the phone.Then i tought that my mom sleep in the air-conditional room which have to close the door and set the alarm clock at about the time i finish my biology 2 at first i tell her the period of time.Later on i go to eat 6 pieces of delicious dumpling with one teaspoon of chille which is spicy enough opposite my school.Then i continue call back to my house phone but still nobody pick up the phone.Very tired of that motion.I sit on the bench which is provided in front my school.At about going to 4 o'clock my mom only arrive there and said sorry about that.Before she said sorry i complain to her that i have call a lot of times home,why don't you pick up the phone?Then she tell also my aunt suddenly call my mom to her house and go shopping.I tell her no biology 2 today but pospone to nexy monday.She also tell me that she also scare that suddenly the exams will be cancel and it really goes like that.Then she tell me also when she was there she is not cofortable because worried about me.My aunt see my mom expression from her face and ask her to back home.On the way home it was a traffic jam then she said sorry again because she is late.
This week :
Monday : I return the text books that borrow from school personally.When going to the assembly trapped by the prefect.At first the silly prefect does not finish listening what i explain she already want to take my names and give it to discipline teacher but i stop her to do that by calling her name and repeat my explaination which i go return books personally because scare the time for me to exams will clash to the time i return books.Then she only let me go.After the assembly dismiss,i go and see that biology teacher but didn't see her.When i back to my class i saw my form teacher and i tell him that i already return personally.Later on the biology teacher only come to my class and ask me to take my exams in the science laboratory workers room.I was disturb by the science which walk in and out somemore science laboratory workers ask me somthing.Damm sore.After finishing the exams i go home.
On tuesday i would going to Fraser Hill.Details would be send later on.
Sunday : Before evening i was full of confident on passing my history with flying colours.My confident stop when night.Suddenly feel very scare till nausea.Whatever what i had study everthing gone,disappear.But a suprise which come out from my mom is "do your best is enough already, you do not need to put on the pressure, isn't that you already prepared it since after your mid-year exams?"I so happy to heard that from my mom because this is the first time she give me this advise.Normally my mom will said "you must do the best and score the best marks,if not then you better watch up."
Monday : The history exams is soon will be conduct, still feel very nervous.After school time my mother ask me how about your exams,good?I answer i just do it my best only,because i feel everthing lost from my memory.Somemore the questions ask a lot about Islamic,i haven finish memorize that part yet.
Tuesday : Chemistry i did it just ok only.Some information i have forgotten.But still can pass the exams.
Wednesday : Oh my god for my physics exams.Paper 1 do not have enough time to finish all the objectives question.A lot of calculation.Paper 2 quite headache.At nigh i didn't sleep well.I only sleep about an hour then prepared my additional mathematics exams next morning.
Thursday : Moral paper i memorize some of the moral values only from that morning at the last minutes of time.Hahaha.This time i do think that i could past my additional mathematics,section a ,a lot not sure of the formula,then i try to score my marks in section b and c.But i didn't feel tired during exams.At night didn't sleep weel again.This time i sleep for around 45 minutes only.
Then i prepared for my mathematics paper.
Friday : Mathematics paper 1 also same like physics paper 1 as well, do not have enough of time to finish it.Afterthat, i go and see my biology teacher which give me biology paper 2 exams personally to confirm the time.During my mathematics paper 2 that teacher go into mt class and tell me that postpone to next monday.Hate this type of people lah,disturb me when i having exams and also make me free take much more longer than other.Hai {sign}. That day also have a society meeting which is the last time for the year,but i go there late.About going to dismiss i only go because everything is about the same.Their speech always about the same.So, boring.Only the activities would be different only.Because of that, i escape to be there to the christian felloship.This place makes me feel more comfortable to be there,somemore study bible knoledge is more fun,gain knowledge and also got story to listen .Maybe my looks is not that serious during the study,teacher almost every time she will ask me to read out the passage then only she explain.But actually i am always serious in study.I always remember what story she taught and also what the story brings about.When the classes finished only i go to the society.In ten minutes time it dismiss.Huray.After that,i go to the telephone station there to call my mom to fetch me back home.But i call a lot of times but no one answer the phone.Then i tought that my mom sleep in the air-conditional room which have to close the door and set the alarm clock at about the time i finish my biology 2 at first i tell her the period of time.Later on i go to eat 6 pieces of delicious dumpling with one teaspoon of chille which is spicy enough opposite my school.Then i continue call back to my house phone but still nobody pick up the phone.Very tired of that motion.I sit on the bench which is provided in front my school.At about going to 4 o'clock my mom only arrive there and said sorry about that.Before she said sorry i complain to her that i have call a lot of times home,why don't you pick up the phone?Then she tell also my aunt suddenly call my mom to her house and go shopping.I tell her no biology 2 today but pospone to nexy monday.She also tell me that she also scare that suddenly the exams will be cancel and it really goes like that.Then she tell me also when she was there she is not cofortable because worried about me.My aunt see my mom expression from her face and ask her to back home.On the way home it was a traffic jam then she said sorry again because she is late.
This week :
Monday : I return the text books that borrow from school personally.When going to the assembly trapped by the prefect.At first the silly prefect does not finish listening what i explain she already want to take my names and give it to discipline teacher but i stop her to do that by calling her name and repeat my explaination which i go return books personally because scare the time for me to exams will clash to the time i return books.Then she only let me go.After the assembly dismiss,i go and see that biology teacher but didn't see her.When i back to my class i saw my form teacher and i tell him that i already return personally.Later on the biology teacher only come to my class and ask me to take my exams in the science laboratory workers room.I was disturb by the science which walk in and out somemore science laboratory workers ask me somthing.Damm sore.After finishing the exams i go home.
On tuesday i would going to Fraser Hill.Details would be send later on.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
what the hell
What the hell is it!!!!
Why during exams still got to follows all the laws in school.So bored lah.During exams my place state at the side.So warm lah.So sad.
Why during exams still got to follows all the laws in school.So bored lah.During exams my place state at the side.So warm lah.So sad.
an anger dream i had.
Such an hateful dream i got...
One night i suddenly remember something which i have to buy a spare camera batteries, because my camera batteries does not last long.Last time i go to bird park and i want to take the birds picture.Unfortunately the batteries does not last long.When i come out from the shop which sell camera i saw my mom go with a guy.At that moment thats really make me feel angy and some kind of hatred.They go into the shop that i think it would be a hostel,because there was a lot of people leave and sleep there.That time i was crazy on searching my mom.At last i saw her sleeping with that guy sweetly.That view makes me feel just like pouring oil to the fire.I scold my mom angrily and i run out of the hostel.
But this just a dream.Thats not real.I do believe to my mom won't do such ashameful things.
I hope all the bad dreams leave me away.Don't ever try to closed to me again forever.{scream}
One night i suddenly remember something which i have to buy a spare camera batteries, because my camera batteries does not last long.Last time i go to bird park and i want to take the birds picture.Unfortunately the batteries does not last long.When i come out from the shop which sell camera i saw my mom go with a guy.At that moment thats really make me feel angy and some kind of hatred.They go into the shop that i think it would be a hostel,because there was a lot of people leave and sleep there.That time i was crazy on searching my mom.At last i saw her sleeping with that guy sweetly.That view makes me feel just like pouring oil to the fire.I scold my mom angrily and i run out of the hostel.
But this just a dream.Thats not real.I do believe to my mom won't do such ashameful things.
I hope all the bad dreams leave me away.Don't ever try to closed to me again forever.{scream}
politics
A very good new from the health minister!!!
The health minister said that next year the packaging of the cigrette will put on some pictures which the patient with cancer disease.So fun.But below the picture, i think should add in this sentences "These cancer disease will not only harm to you (the smoker) but also to your family''. If this is working on reducing number of smoker,then all of the passive smokerdo not need to suffer from the cigrette smoke which can risk our health.I hope this can happen as soon as possible.YEAH!!!
BUT
Another bad news is our minister Abdullah Badawi will give out his place to Najib later on.It is a regret news,because he is a liability person who did everything just because of our country good.He eliminate corruption with "anti-rasuah" programme so that consummer do not have to suffer from buying all the high cost products,eliminate illicit migration,increase the alcholic, cigrette products cost,decrease a familty burden with lend the text book to the disciple and also eliminate the cost for the disciple examination fees. He is that good person why still have people diskike him.[An extremely headache problem.Hai(sign).]
The health minister said that next year the packaging of the cigrette will put on some pictures which the patient with cancer disease.So fun.But below the picture, i think should add in this sentences "These cancer disease will not only harm to you (the smoker) but also to your family''. If this is working on reducing number of smoker,then all of the passive smokerdo not need to suffer from the cigrette smoke which can risk our health.I hope this can happen as soon as possible.YEAH!!!
BUT
Another bad news is our minister Abdullah Badawi will give out his place to Najib later on.It is a regret news,because he is a liability person who did everything just because of our country good.He eliminate corruption with "anti-rasuah" programme so that consummer do not have to suffer from buying all the high cost products,eliminate illicit migration,increase the alcholic, cigrette products cost,decrease a familty burden with lend the text book to the disciple and also eliminate the cost for the disciple examination fees. He is that good person why still have people diskike him.[An extremely headache problem.Hai(sign).]
Monday, October 27, 2008
a scary nap dream
In the dream...
I was in my own class {chemistry laboratory} and chatting with my closed friend happily.
In a sudden my aunt which she lives opposite my house neighbours rushed into my class and called me out of the class in a hurry.She telled me that my mom had been died without telling the cause of death and hurried me back home.
When i back home,i saw everyone are preparing and setting up the ceromony.At first i really don't believe to it until i saw my mother lying in the coffin.At that moment i feel lost, a sudden blank and also helpless, because she was the only one parent who take care of me, teach me and give advise me on choosing the way to make my life perfect and there is no one can replace her because my father had past away seens i was in primary 4.My tears flow out just like a fountain, non stop flowing after knowing her death.
After some times, i stop crying and asked a guy i think he is my closed friend which i don't know how he know my mother [think back quite an impossible thing].I asked him what causes my mother to death.He reply me that, my mother died because and accident.That accident is a cart which send a lot of new cars to the show room fell and press to my mother cars{kancil,perodua}and also more than 40 cars on the federal highway.
After knowing it, i continue crying all the time although the ceromony starts.The priest direct the other relatives to sing and also invocation.After that i was pleased to talk something.My feelings really uncontrollable and i force my self to give out everything relevent to her, every sweet moment with her in a speech form [with crying].She is the best mom that i receive from god.In my heart i saying that why god you bring my mom away,at least let her live in this world until i know how to drive.
A sudden again, the dream was break because i wander to go for a pee.At that time i realize that that was just a scarry dream and i have tears on my face and i do scream in whisper form.When i saw my mom is having her nap on the other sofa then only i calm down.This is the worst experience of dream that i ever experience it.I t really feel bad.I dislike it because it was to real.
I was in my own class {chemistry laboratory} and chatting with my closed friend happily.
In a sudden my aunt which she lives opposite my house neighbours rushed into my class and called me out of the class in a hurry.She telled me that my mom had been died without telling the cause of death and hurried me back home.
When i back home,i saw everyone are preparing and setting up the ceromony.At first i really don't believe to it until i saw my mother lying in the coffin.At that moment i feel lost, a sudden blank and also helpless, because she was the only one parent who take care of me, teach me and give advise me on choosing the way to make my life perfect and there is no one can replace her because my father had past away seens i was in primary 4.My tears flow out just like a fountain, non stop flowing after knowing her death.
After some times, i stop crying and asked a guy i think he is my closed friend which i don't know how he know my mother [think back quite an impossible thing].I asked him what causes my mother to death.He reply me that, my mother died because and accident.That accident is a cart which send a lot of new cars to the show room fell and press to my mother cars{kancil,perodua}and also more than 40 cars on the federal highway.
After knowing it, i continue crying all the time although the ceromony starts.The priest direct the other relatives to sing and also invocation.After that i was pleased to talk something.My feelings really uncontrollable and i force my self to give out everything relevent to her, every sweet moment with her in a speech form [with crying].She is the best mom that i receive from god.In my heart i saying that why god you bring my mom away,at least let her live in this world until i know how to drive.
A sudden again, the dream was break because i wander to go for a pee.At that time i realize that that was just a scarry dream and i have tears on my face and i do scream in whisper form.When i saw my mom is having her nap on the other sofa then only i calm down.This is the worst experience of dream that i ever experience it.I t really feel bad.I dislike it because it was to real.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
a sudden memories come to me
I sudden remember something happen in my school during the recess time of my school.After finish my biology paper 1 exams i back to my class and have my last minute study for my reka cipta subjects.At that moment, some of my classmate feel boring on study and they stop it.There was 2 pair of love birds having their date in my class, which 2 girls from other class come to my class.One of them is form 3 and the other one is form 4 which is my cousin sister.That time there was 2 guy act out every moments that done by one pair of the love birds(the form 3 girl and my classmate).At first,my monitor which is a guy he act as the girl and the other classmate which always make himself like a singger in class he act as the boy.This makes alot of laughing sound from few numbers of classmate and of course me.After a while the monitor give the character of the love birds girl to another girl.Their acting really perfect just like the real couple.That love birds realize their action, and the guy of that love birds feel started some anger feelings and tell far away with whisper to the actor stop acting whatever they done, because he is quite angry.After that we do not have movies. Everyting disappear as usual because recess time has past.
Back to Tuesday memory...
On Tuesday the chinese exams paper essay question which we can choose the essay title like objective question.At first i pick the question"students which like study ,he or she won't goes bad".That question i wonder to reflect i disagree that statement.But half way i realize that i can't reach 400 word and above , then i answer the other one which is "how is your dream school looks like".I reflect that i do have some problems on my leg which i have chronic pain on my leg and i have a floating class which means my class is science laboratory.If any classes need to use my class for their lessons oour class have to go to their class to continue the lessons of the day and this problems make me feel bored to go to school for my studies.Then i continue write to the main story that i have to write is i dream the school is computerize, which means in every class and every students table have a computer.And students are using computer for studies.This may reduce the weight of the bagsand student does not need to anxiety on the heavy bags.Next is have lift system, so that teacher and student can be in class on time , no additional class happen.The other point i write there every classes should have air conditional. So that the class condition always cool.Lastly i write there but these is just a dream .These won't appear in school except the private school.For the government school just a dream which won't happen because government want to save money for other uses.I hope this essay will help me from fail my chinese results but not due me to fail.
Back to Tuesday memory...
On Tuesday the chinese exams paper essay question which we can choose the essay title like objective question.At first i pick the question"students which like study ,he or she won't goes bad".That question i wonder to reflect i disagree that statement.But half way i realize that i can't reach 400 word and above , then i answer the other one which is "how is your dream school looks like".I reflect that i do have some problems on my leg which i have chronic pain on my leg and i have a floating class which means my class is science laboratory.If any classes need to use my class for their lessons oour class have to go to their class to continue the lessons of the day and this problems make me feel bored to go to school for my studies.Then i continue write to the main story that i have to write is i dream the school is computerize, which means in every class and every students table have a computer.And students are using computer for studies.This may reduce the weight of the bagsand student does not need to anxiety on the heavy bags.Next is have lift system, so that teacher and student can be in class on time , no additional class happen.The other point i write there every classes should have air conditional. So that the class condition always cool.Lastly i write there but these is just a dream .These won't appear in school except the private school.For the government school just a dream which won't happen because government want to save money for other uses.I hope this essay will help me from fail my chinese results but not due me to fail.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
decision
This morning i am quite worry on doing some decision, because i am still not that confident on doing that decision.Once got wrong maybe will get scold from the teacher.Decision that i have to think about before i do:
1.If my biology teacher which help me on the projects didn't come should i attend the biology
paper 1 in other classes, and which class should i in???
After meet the teacher ,she tell me that i have to follow the first class.Then i found that there is no any extra table for me to sit for the exams
2.See wheather the third, forth, and fifth classes have any extra chairs and table then should i
conduct there then???But there is just enough for that classes of students.
I go to see that biology teacher in her office but she was not in.After then i got trapped by the discipline teacher.He ask strictly :"are you from adviser associated?"Follow on i say yes to him.Then he ask again :" why is your uniform are not tidy?Are you sick?"Then i answer him yes because i feel very sick in every test.But when i am in primary school is worst.That time i always fall in sick in every exams.But to day is not that sick as yesteday.After that i rush back to class.
At last i made my own decision that i conduct my biology paper 1 in my own class,on the way back to the first class.Which i have to rush to the first class to take the exams paper then rush back to my class and ask my class teacher whoever he or she in as my patol teacher during the exams.After telling what goes on to that teacher, that teacher asked me :"why don't you bring your table and chairs here and take your exams?"
Finally, i also follow the instruction.I go in to my class after inform to my teacher i bring along my tables and chair to the examination class.That time i am quite lazy to carry that on my own but to ask the guys sitting behind my class which are chatting happily in the class although i have the energy to carry it.But i didn't break their happiness.I carry my chair's and my desk there.
I think i do quite well today with the last minutes study that i did on last night till today wee hours.
Before times up the exam patrol teacher was my school assistant headmaster.He ask who is the students from the second class.Then i raise up my hand to show him it's me.He asked me to go infront of the class and tell him my name. After then i back to my sit and continue check my answer.At th same time he also asked who wants to have some study to prepared the biology paper 2 please hand in your papers then you can get your books and study quitely.But i didn't hand in early although i have finish answering the question.
Lastly, i hand in when he said times up.This time i am quite satisfy to my paper 1 exams.May be i study it also during my past time.But i still have to prepared for my biology paper 2 which i have to conduct it later.{but don't know when}
1.If my biology teacher which help me on the projects didn't come should i attend the biology
paper 1 in other classes, and which class should i in???
After meet the teacher ,she tell me that i have to follow the first class.Then i found that there is no any extra table for me to sit for the exams
2.See wheather the third, forth, and fifth classes have any extra chairs and table then should i
conduct there then???But there is just enough for that classes of students.
I go to see that biology teacher in her office but she was not in.After then i got trapped by the discipline teacher.He ask strictly :"are you from adviser associated?"Follow on i say yes to him.Then he ask again :" why is your uniform are not tidy?Are you sick?"Then i answer him yes because i feel very sick in every test.But when i am in primary school is worst.That time i always fall in sick in every exams.But to day is not that sick as yesteday.After that i rush back to class.
At last i made my own decision that i conduct my biology paper 1 in my own class,on the way back to the first class.Which i have to rush to the first class to take the exams paper then rush back to my class and ask my class teacher whoever he or she in as my patol teacher during the exams.After telling what goes on to that teacher, that teacher asked me :"why don't you bring your table and chairs here and take your exams?"
Finally, i also follow the instruction.I go in to my class after inform to my teacher i bring along my tables and chair to the examination class.That time i am quite lazy to carry that on my own but to ask the guys sitting behind my class which are chatting happily in the class although i have the energy to carry it.But i didn't break their happiness.I carry my chair's and my desk there.
I think i do quite well today with the last minutes study that i did on last night till today wee hours.
Before times up the exam patrol teacher was my school assistant headmaster.He ask who is the students from the second class.Then i raise up my hand to show him it's me.He asked me to go infront of the class and tell him my name. After then i back to my sit and continue check my answer.At th same time he also asked who wants to have some study to prepared the biology paper 2 please hand in your papers then you can get your books and study quitely.But i didn't hand in early although i have finish answering the question.
Lastly, i hand in when he said times up.This time i am quite satisfy to my paper 1 exams.May be i study it also during my past time.But i still have to prepared for my biology paper 2 which i have to conduct it later.{but don't know when}
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
dairy.
Today is my malay and chinese test.This morning i start to feel extremely nervous until nausea.When i get the question paper i feel a sudden blank,and i try my best to finish it.To finish 5 hours long exams is not easy.When finish the paper my finger feel very pain.No during the exams already pain.
Last blog i have written that i do no reaction to my piano resutls.Today i got the remark of my piano exams and i tell my parents what i got.No sign from them.
concern on health???
after study in science stream i know that how sugar can harm our body more deeply.because of that i become more concern to my daily nutritious.one day i have my breakfast with my parent in one coffee shop that nearby my house.then i wonder to ask do either the kayang pau ,lian rong pau ,dao sa pau and even char siew pau suger free or less suger since nowadays people are concern on their suger level. i wander to know what will the bos react to me but my parent avoid me to do so.
Last blog i have written that i do no reaction to my piano resutls.Today i got the remark of my piano exams and i tell my parents what i got.No sign from them.
concern on health???
after study in science stream i know that how sugar can harm our body more deeply.because of that i become more concern to my daily nutritious.one day i have my breakfast with my parent in one coffee shop that nearby my house.then i wonder to ask do either the kayang pau ,lian rong pau ,dao sa pau and even char siew pau suger free or less suger since nowadays people are concern on their suger level. i wander to know what will the bos react to me but my parent avoid me to do so.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
i want freedom
Every teenager sure like to have their own freedom without any control from parents, teachers, friends and civic.Me too.My parents always control me strictly until i have lost my self from choosing my own way.I want to live own my way,i want to do everythings that i like without anyone contol me,no matter i won or lose.I wanted to challenge my life till the end of the day i live in this world.But most elder told all youngster just follow whatever what your parents asked to do,just like you follow the laws in school and also your countries laws which can help to make this world hermony.Bord to listen to this sentence again and again seems like all over the world until i can bear this into my mind and when others are repeat to the others i can continue the next word.(hai...)
I know this is for my own good but not until cannot go out with friends during the holidays and have to follow them wherever they go like a pets.(sigh...)
I know this is for my own good but not until cannot go out with friends during the holidays and have to follow them wherever they go like a pets.(sigh...)
Sunday, September 28, 2008
do no reaction on knowing results
I have my music exams and the results just com out. My dearest teacher told me your results already come out. Then i just response "oh" and i continuing do the exercise that she gave which i haven't done.She also look in to something. After rew seconds,she say "ei, why you don't have any reaction on knowing your results, and actually do you understand what i'm telling or not".Then i say yes.She ask me again what do u think the marks u get,pass or fail.I say pass loh.Then she tell me u really pass your exams , but before this what marks do you hope to have.I tell her that at least better then last exams.Only this i hope because i didn't do very well on that exams. She tell me that i just pass but lower than last exams. I also accept it.(in the conversation with my teacher i really do no reaction and emotion, i think my teacher is quite disappointing on these.)
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
friend
I always meet a friend friendly to them but some of them are not like that to me. And even worst is they always critic me.I do have a friend that last time he is quite go to me but don't know since when he make our friendship seems like farther.Quite sad about that and even his best friend he also do that to him.I wander to know why but he does not responed.
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