give up

I want to cancel taking my gastric pain medication and cancel my leg operation.I don't want to care about my illness anymore.Just leave it.Let it goes like that depends on god.

heartbreak,suffer

My mom and teacher had break my heart.It was a terrible pain.I suffer it and what i could say is it was a grade 10 pain.

food

Because of sick i ,certain food i have to stop taking it.Miss all that foodstuff.I must heal faster so that i can enjoying eating.

my uncle left my aunt

My uncle left my aunt and go with the other China women.This uncle is useless.He break his own family which he built up with his wife.I hope this aunt prefer to divorce if that uncle back to her side.So that no awkward appear between them.

i have back to school

I have back to school.Quite lot homework to do.I ask for permission to hand in the homework late.Certain teacher are dicussing the exams papper.I just listen.Now i found that there was a classmate sit beside my sits.

he,he,he

Last week one whole week i didn't go to school because i allergic to the medicine which to cure Helicobater Pylori.Rashes coming out and my skin condition goes dry.My classroom is quite warm.I dare not to go school because i don't want to suffer from scratching,gastric pain and also the pain from my legs and some more got to face exams , no mood to take exams.Rest at home in the morning and go tuition in the afternoon.The period i took the medicine to cure Helicobater Pylori i looks ugly and old.

not realize

Under not realize my uncle had already past away for 1 week time ago.He is good and kind.Although sometimes he quarrel with his wife but i think is just for closing to each other.He died just in a sudden under no one realize.I heard from relatives they said that after work he and his colleague chat and some jokes go on.His colleague thinking of why no more sound from him and then only realize that he is death.But at that time he still have some body temperature when sent to hospital,his corpse is totally cold.They find that he's death under heart attack.When send back to his house his wife cry badly

hard for me to catch up

My operation will falls on the school holiday wednesday on march.My tuition class was double up the class on that day for the replacement of the no electricity supply.It would be 2 lesson that i will miss,i scare that it will be hard for me to catch up.Hopefully teacher can find some time and teach me earlier.

yeh!no more physical exercise for me

Yes!Now i have more time to do my study,i do not need to join the physical exercise anymore because my legs come out with the stupid problem.I got letter for not to join that class.

my both legs problem

My both legs problem is quite serious.I have to go opperate later on.

some teacher thought i am a happy person

Actually, i'm not really happy anymore since the illness stick to me so much , some more it is chronic.Hate it.Sometimes feel like die is much better.At least no anxious,no more pain is feel,no more tired heart.But god say that whoever commited suicide will never enter heaven.So got to live in this world nomatter how many burden there are.Sometimes i really want to closed myself into a dark room which no one will go into and look into.
Actually i'm not a happy person.Seems like full of sorrow things happens on me.
I just put on my smiling face because there's one book with title "nomatter how bitter is the life goes,keep smiling".

worried about medical fees

Now i'm sick.Can i claim money with my insurance that i had bought from the school???
Hopefully i could claim back the money so that the medical fees would not become my mom burden.

message sent by my friend

I have receive a lot message from my friend,all in it is likely about like if you send the message out it might bring you good luck,or charity or to awake people not to do something.Some i have sent out but nowadays i'm not really very free and this i will send it out later.However, all this likely fake.It seems like don't have good fortune will sticks to anyone.Luck won't appear everywhere.No matter how i perform to be the best,do good to people,my life still like that.A lot sicknesses like to stick to me.It won't be change.No one of these world will cares about me except my parents,family and my closed friend.
I got to be optimist so that my luck might be change. I addition i am one of the counselling associated members.

blog is a space for me to throw out the bad feelings

Everytime, after blog i feel a bit comfortable that i could describe and more energetic.This make me can work for a longer period of time that i could describe.

i don't want my mom to be sad

Why some secret will never last long??? I wander to go for a body check later on.But last friday my mom bring me to Tung Shin Hospital to scope my stomach,and now the detector change positively.My mom looks was very upset,lost,and anxious.I really, really don't want my mom to cry again in her heart that no one knows.

happy

I'm happy because i can meet my cousins sister online.HAHAHA.....

oh my god

I just go to Tung Shin hospital to scope my stomach to see what wrong to my stomach.That doctor take out some enzyme from my stomach and now the detector of helicobacter pylori change positive.Which means i got to go hospital again.Last going is friday.And all the fees is 700 bucks.

why government secondary school teacher well being crazy!!!

Last wednesday,was the time for my class students to present our working in front of the class.But most of us couldn't present and not prepared because the "Chinese New Year".Everyone is busy on visiting relatives back to their own hometown.That's the reason why everyone couldn't make it on time.After the teacher know we are not prepared,the teacher scold us "crazy,stupid like a pig ,brainless like a wood".That time i were damn angry of that teacher.All
Chinese are busy,why don't she forgive us but scold us terribly.
Second day,i'm not feeling well.The gastric pain stick to me again.My morning mood change.But sadly my mom face shows like force me to attend school.And so i go but late.Later then ,the prefect ask me to sign and list my name in the list which is late attendance with reasons.I had written there i'm not feeling well.But the assistant of headmaster which he got stroke before this he just cane me like that.
My body system goes wrong terribly after the punishment ,i can't even take a pen and write with my hand.Some of my friend know what's happen on me they feel unhappy to the assistant of the headmaster.How can the teachers do that.It just unbelievable that i could say that.And i still wandering is that our government do not pay enough to them to buy medicine to control their mind?How come there was some weird teacher occurs? These make me feel damn angry.{I do think this post are sensetive but i have no idea to tell out.}

is that what i tell i hard to understand???

I think one of my friend that i think he do like to appear offline a lot,because hard to meet him online.I think he receive every message from me and he read too.But comes to fashion i tell him the way to wear and make him has a outstanding looks he seems like he couldn't understand at all .Is that too difficult to choose to make oneself have an outstanding looks clothes??? I'm not sure is that he really follow the way i tought him online,but i do guess so and i don't hope because what i tell him he follow with the wrong way.

mad,mad,mad

It was a boring year which continue since last year mid-autumn festival.This year that i could describe is "boring chinese new year" but not a "happy chinese new year".This year non of my cousins play the playing cards and we didn't sit together and chit chat and also jokes.