tired of running life

I'm really tired of running life.Whenever i wonder to rest and slow down my steps surely there is something behind me and never let me to rest.Tired life.It is okay of beat the sick devil down.I think i will beat them down somedays.But come to people crush on me,i have no idea and every time to time i always escape from them.This started from the day i'm in my secondary school life.All of them will never last long on their feelings.They will give up in a period because i did not accept any of them.But in this period i always want to escape from them because if can don't even want to see their face and even accept their greets.Tired of that particular period.I just need some love profession councellor to give me some advice to handle these kind of people.Because these people will never give me any chances to reject them and i never can find a right time.Normally this period take time for them to give up.The longest peroid was around 2 years and the shortest was 1 and a haft month.Tired!