reflection after cut my hair

After cut my hair,i feel my head goes lighter,and i looks naughtier.

why so many people ask me...

Why so many people ask me to grow my hair?I just like to do whatever i like without any people border me.I just like to play a fool.No matter how they say i also don't want to listen.I just like to go with my way for certain time.Sorry to make you all disappointed again.

if and only if

If and only if i really can decide how my life goes,i think i will try and willing to forget about distance between us,places where we stood at and even our identity just because of you.
I was tighten up with strict rules and control by my parents.Whenever what had happen onto me,my parents will always ask me to follow every single instructions and even their way to live.
I dare not to dream about how do our relation go further more.I must be awake,so i won't let you down.I'm sorry to always awake you from your sweet dream,so that you will not continue the dream that you are dreaming for.Because i know that i do not have the rights to prefer,to decide any thing for my life.
I wonder to be with you.I had fall in love to you under not knowing when.I also wonder to hug you,to hold your hand tightly without let you go.But i can't.
I know you are a good person to be my entire life partner,and i know that you will willing to stay beside me till the end of the life.I really can't do it,is not because the love is not deep enough,is i couldn't be selfish to my parent,to my family.You was the first and i do think that you are the last person that i meet is perfect that i could describe you,which really fall in love to me.Whatever you say i'm stupid not to gave you chance to be my lover,i will not angry about that if you feel happy,i willing to let you say so.
I know love could cover everything,but this is not the way and not a good solution.I still have to follow and respect to what my parent decide.I have no choice not to give you any chances.I'm sorry,because i am inability to give you happiness.
And maybe my parent will choose whoever they feel suitable and they like to be my entire life partner,i will follow so.Because i don't want to let them upset,dissapointed onto me.
I'm so sorry to reject you and had spoilt your sweet dream and even your hope that you put onto me.I'm so sorry,to say that but i have no more choice.
My life is not control fully by my own but my parents and people who are elder than me,who has more experience than me.
Sorry,i had make you upset and full of dissapointed on me.I'm so sorry about that.This passage was a passage that i drafted out deep and truly from my heart.
I will always care about you and not to let you get any hurt.Do you notice that?
Please look for the others to be your lover.Please choose properly.I'm sure you could do it well because i believe in you.And i'm sure that the lover that you will be picking will suit you much more compare to me.I'm sorry to chase you away from my side.Please left me before getting any hurt.That's the only way to let me love you,to protect your heart properly that i can think.
Because of my parent,your identity,the place where you stood and the distance between us was highlighted up although i'm not willing to do so.Hope you could understand my situation after reading this.

not fun also

I put teacher's day present on teachers room table quietly and without anyone knowing,because that time no teacher in it.But teacher seems to be like a genius,they can guess is me.So no more fun already.

wah...

The water colour from Korea is very expensive.13 colour cost RM 30 something already.

robocon

That day i went for robocon.It was a contest for university and college.The theme was like the old day transport,2 people will be lifting up sedan chair and 1 people will be sitting on the sedan chair n of course the people who sitting on the sedan chair surely is the host and the people who lift up the sedan chair is workers.This mean they have to set up 3 different robot.The way to win is past through all barrier and last the robot {host} got to use drumstick to hit on that 3 drum.
It was so fun,but sadly before it end teacher say got to go back.Haiz...
But the lucky thing is the food they prepared not bad.

I had take a long time to decide and find for the best price

I was annoy about how am i going to bring my old stock poster colour and also not a good qualified art block to school and sit for the art exams.Because i scare that i don't have much time on digging out the old stock poster colour to paint,and the art block is hard to paint it dark.If i want to paint it dark,surely i have to paint the colour again and again,and the paper will be too wet and the paper will be tear.And today since i have a period free in tuition class,i go and get both this thing with the company of my friend.I got the art block in the shop beside the Central Market,and that time i was so aunty maybe cause by follow mom and aunties to shopping too much and i bargain with the cashier.Wakakaka.She cut 1 dollar for me.Whatever is better then never.Sadly i couldn't get my Buncho poster colour.Later then,i decide to go to the "Nan Yang" shop to see whether i can get the poster colour or not.Sadly it was closed.I had to go back to Popular Bookstore and get it.
Artblock : RM16-RM1
Poster colour : RM18.99＋RM0.01--nett price
Total : RM35
Even thought i spend it but my parent will not pay me.Erghhh....Become poor already.Haiz.

problem solved

At first i was thinking about this year i'm hard to get present for parent because of my left leg.But it was already solve today because i have free period in my tuition class today because the teaching for malay teacher does not attend today.Before that i was planing to join for certain subjects twice but i didn't make it because i'm lazy.And i do have a friend is free,and she ask me go out.Then i had decide to take this opportunity to go out to buy present.
I had bought a rose for my mom as her "Mother's Day" present.

teachers eye contact

I feel strange with the wednesday Petaling Jaya branch Kasturi teachers eye contact to me except the accounts's teacher.Both additional mathematics and the biology tuition teacher eye contact to me,i feel very strange.What had they talk about me?I want to know.But whatever how i ask i do think they won't tell me anything.Both of them like to be that secreat.I couldn't understand them well.Haiz...

cannot want meah???{with broken english}

Before my english for science and technology tuition class,i just came out from one of the tuition classroom and stood outside the other classroom.I complaint i having...noi should say i suffer from gastric pain again with my smilling face.And what my friend respon is "huh,you gastric still can with your smilling face,without any sweat out and also shiver."In my heart,i was thinking about "hah,cannot want meah?"But i tell my friend that erm...i never sweat and shiver even though i suffer the pain.

i link to somebody when...

Today during the english for science and technology tuition class,teacher talk about how the accident happen and how to prevent or what i can say is reduce the number of the accident happen.This make my brain linked to a teacher which i don't want to mention him so much,and i started to smile till wanted to laugh out,but i didn't.

forgotten about the food problem

This saturday i am going to join a programme about robotic in Stadium Melawati,Shah Alam.And i had forgotten about how lowsy is the food taste in the seminar in Universiti Malaya.Oh my godness.Hopefully no more that lowsy food occurs in any programme introduce by school.

labour day???

Actually i disagree the explaination of labour day as a day for everyone to rest because human won't really rest at all.Human will still continue their daily live.It still a working day for everyone.Anyway,just follow whatever what old days people called as well.
Yesterday was a labour day inverted comma.Hahaha.I spend it on something that i feel is good to do it or i can say it as meaningful thing that is joining chemistry and physic seminar which conduct in Universiti Malaya.At first all my friend included me is quite happy and excited.Because we are going to Universiti and take for our seminar.
After reaching there ,all of us pay for full course cost then we going in to the lecture hall number 3.The first step in i feel like going in a cinema.After get my place with my friend,my friend start to say that they feel so suprise because haven't finish SPM exams we already there and feel like didn't past through the exams that we need to go through we still can continue our studies in higher level studies.Hahaha.Is it.I don't think so.If like that i will feel a lot of pressure on me then.Anyway is okey for me to continue my further study on seminar.
The chemistry lesson was a bit bored.But not for physics.The physics teacher show us a picture which is a baby swimming in a pool and the mother followed behind.And he tell us that we were the baby which seeking our way to score "A" in SPM.Later then he continue with saying he was the mother who guide us.There was some student which also his tutor student take the chance to make jokes on him and call him "mama" with some weird sound.Hahaha.
Until the part which about the safety which needed in a car.He tell us that last time his student answer him with handphone,spare tyre and also a blanket.He say he ask them why will they give such a weird answer that no one will answer like that before and want to listen to their explaination.The student answer him that the handphone is needed because whenever robbed by others ,car accident or someone want to kidnapped them,when got chance to escape they can call to police station to make report or call their family.The next answer,common sensely when tyre spoilt,still can change.And the last one is if and only if their house on fire,they still can live in their own car.What a silly answer.But the teacher say it also can be accepted.It was not wrong at all.Then we continue our lesson.Not awhile he teach us the light.Certain terms he want us to follow him to pronouns out.Finish pronouns the term whatever his speech continue with the whole hall student repeat whatever he talk but except me.This make him cannot stand us and started to laugh.Until i think is the 3rd time he ask us to do the same thing that i just mention above,he give up and stop talking and just draw out without single word from his mouth.Everyone laugh except me again because i don't think that funny.Later then someone ask him to talk,only that time everyone start to be quite.
All these above that i had mention,i quite enjoy all that thing.However,the place provided for us to sit,i did not enjoy at all.It was so pack.The hall was quite a warm room.Lastly i can say that the food they prepared was so lowsy.Hate it much.
Yesterday night i tell about the food to my additional mathematics teacher online that if i know the food they prepared is that lowsy,the day before going i will ask him out and bring me to any nearby restaurant or foodcourt and eat.I'll pay for the expanses.At least i do not need to suffer from the taste.And the teacher laugh at me.Haiz.He was the only one who i told.

pity aquarius

From horoskope that tell apuarius quite healthy.But real want is not like that also.haiz